The journey I’ve been on is unlike any other I have faced. I could never have known what it would be like, no matter how much I read and prepared. I was (and still am) filled to the brim with love, and yet, I was thrust into the darkest depths of postpartum anxiety and depression. But that story is for another time. These five months have been a glorious adventure full of love and bonding.
Last week, life changed. A bright shining star blessed my universe. I was already happy. I didn’t realize I could be happier. I already knew love, but I never knew love could be so deep and perfect.
Health care could be improved upon, in the United States, no doubt. But there is one aspect of our health care I am extremely grateful for…
A conversation took place a while ago, between me and my husband. He asked me what classes I could take to help me get a career in writing. I told him I didn’t want a career in writing. Maybe that’s not true. The truth is, I don’t want to make a career out of writing for other people – things I have no interest in. That doesn’t give me any passion at all.
It’s happening in New Delhi, and maybe soon, other parts of India will follow suit. Digital marriage certificates are being issued. A digital marriage certificate has an abundance of benefits… Except if you are not an Indian citizen and your spouse is. I don’t know about other countries, but the U.S. does not accept digital marriage certificates.
I have decided not to continue the previous story of my journey home, and keep my feelings on that experience very private. In summary, it was hard. As I crossed the globe, my mission became easier, but the sadness was still present. I was lucky, in a way, as I found a lot of adventure along the way. My flight was suddenly changed and I went on to Hong Kong.
My Transition Home
As I arrived home, I was greeted by my sister and one of my younger brothers. I was very hungry, so we met up with my mom at one of my favorite American restaurants. When we returned to my mother’s house, I distributed sweets and quickly fell asleep. I did miss DN quite a bit, and I was able to talk to him before sleeping.
After that night, I brought my luggage to my grandmother’s house and have been staying here ever since. My grandparents are very calm and loving, and I’m happy to be spending my time here with them. I haven’t had as much energy as I hoped, but otherwise everything is going well!
I hope to start recording more videos soon. Thank you for your patience until then.
I have found many aspects of being home and American culture, strange, once again. But there is little or no reverse culture shock, this time. I miss Delhi, as it’s easy to get around in Delhi with autorickshaws and the wonderful metro system. In my city, taxis are expensive, and only one metro bus extends to my city from the metro city. So getting around without a car is nearly impossible. I find myself more stuck here, than I ever felt, in India. I have my family to take me to the grocery store or to my doctor, but nothing is as freeing as being able to go out any time and bring what I want and need myself.
But I’ve managed so far, and honestly, there is nothing negative about my experience here – except being without my husband… and we’re working on it.
Weeks before leaving, I had to say goodbye to some of my husband’s family. It was hard… But nothing prepared me for saying goodbye to my husband and in-laws. I held myself together, not to appear strong, but to convince myself that I really did have the strength to go through with what I knew to be the best choice… Despite it being the hardest choice.
When we parted ways, I turned many times to wave, my mind swimming with thoughts of abandoning my flight and running back into my husband’s arms. Maybe that’s a bit dramatic, but it’s exactly what my heart wanted to do.
My brother-in-law and his beautiful family came to stay with us for a few days. As exhausting as it was to keep up with the little ones, I really couldn’t be happier with the entire experience. As I mentioned a while ago in “Home is Calling Me” – I’ll be leaving for America soon. While I have quite a bit to look forward to, it’s still extremely difficult to say goodbye to my loved ones here. What a blessing! I love their son, their brother, their nephew, my husband DN, and because of that, they took me into their family. We may have difficulty communicating sometimes, but love needs no translations.
As I may have mentioned before, I am offering Hindi lessons over at My Hindi Heart. However, I am teaching what I am learning, so it’s not perfect. My husband has done is best to help me, but even he gets a bit confused sometimes. Would you help me out?
DN and I were both grumpy this morning… But surprisingly, things turned around really quickly!
It was such a beautiful day outside! When DN left for work, I opened the curtains, let the light shine in, and recorded a new video. I was so inspired by the nice weather, I started checking things off of my cleaning to-do list! I swept the balcony that had layers and layers of sandy dust. It took some time, but it’s looking as good as new now.